Inspiration From Music Industry Icons

Today was an interesting day for me. I found myself going through some type of emotional roller coaster. I didn't know if I was sad or just didn't want to do anything. My mind was filled with thoughts about what I need to do today and what my next move needed to be- but I was at a standstill. I did not get my pen and paper out to work on everything I said I would until around 6 this evening. And still, the only thing I wrote was Dee Lechelle Management.. that was it. I had this feeling of sadness because I lacked inspiration. I don't work just to work, I work out of inspiration, passion, and drive.. and when I don't have those things I am less likely to work hard.

 

Looking for inspiration I turned to my first love... music. I listened to a song by Pretty Willie called "Find Rest." Now find rest really has nothing to do with what I am feeling but for some reason it always gives me this sense of peace. After I listened to that song about 5 times, I watched bits and pieces of the movie "Notorious." For those of you who have never heard of the movie, its about the life of a New York rapper by the name of Notorious B.I.G who really changed rap and still remains a legend in the hip hop community. Now I have seen this movie a million times and even watched a few videos on YouTube about his and his murder, but for some reason today was different. Today I spent hours on YouTube looking at his murder, interviews and interviews of the people close to him. He was truly loved. In addition to looking at his videos, I went on to look at those of Aaliyah, Left Eye and Tupac. And while watching those videos, I found inspiration.

 

I found inspiration in the lives of B.I.G, Aaliyah, Tupac, and Left Eye because they were such amazing artist and the fact that their legacy still lives on more than 10 years after their death is simply amazing and inspirational in its own. It really and truly amazes me how many people their music touched including me. I remember all of these artist, especially Aaliyah and Left Eye. I cried when Aaliyah died as if I knew her personally because in my heart I did, I knew her music. I was also inspired by the fact that they will forever live on and continue to gather fans through their music. That is special. That it something many people wont experience. To lose your kid, sister, mother etc and continue to be able to hear their voice and relive the highlights of their life every time their song comes on the radio is a blessing. I wish I could get the urge to hear my moms voice and all I have to do is cut on the radio. There is peace in that.

 

As an artist during your career you get the opportunity to inspire people but if you can continue to inspire people just as much once you have passed on as you did when you were alive, then you become a legend. Thank goodness for these legends because I needed to be inspired.

 

Until Next Time.. Dee Lechelle



Spoon Fed Dream VS The Starving Truth

When I was a kid I was told to go to college. I was told that if I went to college, I could make enough money to do whatever it is I wanted to do and have whatever it is I wanted to have. I was also told that if I didn't go to college, I could possibly end up like one of those people working at a fast food restaurant at 40. In addition to being told to go to college, I was also told to follow my dreams. I was told all of these things by my family, teachers, and pretty much everyone in society. Even corporations/businesses started by entrepreneurs who never went to college, says go to college to be successful. So you know what I did when I graduated from high school? I went to college. I went to college not because I had this life-long dream of doing so, but because I had been sold this dream that all I had to do was go to college and I would automatically be successful. I would have nice cars and houses, clothes and jewelry, and be able to take unlimited amounts of trips overseas. But boy was I WRONG!!!

 

The thing about being told to go to college is that you only hear the good parts. You never hear about the large amount of debt you go into trying to graduate with a degree that will get you a job, but certainly not one that will pay you enough to pay your student loans off before your retire. You never hear about the many times you will change your major so that you don't disappoint your parents, or the times you starve to death because you have run out of money that you got from your refund check. And most importantly they never discuss the feeling of defeat and disappointment you experience when you have been in college four years trying to figure out where you went wrong, and why everyone around you has finished and your still working on it. What about those who graduate with degrees that are allegedly "guaranteed jobs" like accounting and nursing but work at some dead end job with people who never went to college. Lets keep in mind, they still have to pay off their loans with the job they have getting paid minimum wage.

 

This is not what they told me college would be. Instead I am hit with the harsh reality that college is a struggle. Not just academically but mentally and emotionally. I am a college student and an employee. The hardest thing is having to choose which one is most important. How can I focus on school when I have to make sure my rent is paid, lights are on, and there is gas in my car? I use to wonder why people dropped out of college if it was so great, but now I understand why. Life happens no matter where you are and sometimes you have to do what you have to do to survive. At this exact moment, I am starving trying to finish school and its not because I had this life-long dream to do so, but because society has brainwashed me into believing the spoon fed dream instead of excepting the starving truth.

 

Until Next Time... Dee Lechelle

 

 

 

 

 

 



Learning Something New

Everyday is a chance to learn something new, and as of late, most of what I have been learning is about myself. One thing I have learned within the last 2 weeks is that in certain aspects of my life I'm a perfectionist. I never noticed until it came to exposing myself and experience via my blog. Last week was very exciting for me. I started school at SAE-Nashville and experienced a lot just in the first week. Everyday, I planned to blog about my experience but I didn't. I want every word to be correct and I want to write like the educated college student I am. That's the perfectionist part of me. I want to always be looked at as an educated, well spoken, classy young woman. Granted I am all of that, but that does not mean I cant write/speak about my experiences the way I want. So what if it does not come out in an ideal way, that's the whole point of this blog, to allow me to express my emotional and mental place no matter what is going on rather good or bad.

 

Another thing I have learned/noticed about myself these past 2 weeks is that I'm a severe procrastinator. Its like a disease for me. That's another reason why I haven't blogged in awhile, because I keep putting it off until tomorrow.. tomorrow could mean 2 weeks from now, even worse a month. The saddest part about being a procrastinator is that nothing is an exception. I know I have homework.. I'm still going to procrastinate doing it. I have somewhere important to go or do, I'm still going to procrastinate doing it. I even procrastinate getting out of bed in the morning. I know traffic is bad and that it takes me 45 minutes to get to work on a good day, I still wake up at 5:50 when I have to be at work at 7. It is sooo sad. What makes it worst is that I'm not even all the way sleep, I just don't want to get out of bed smh.

 

Nonetheless, an opportunity to learn is an opportunity to grow and no matter how big or small the lesson is.. its still worth appreciating. My goal for the rest of this month and probably life, is to not be a procrastinator and try not to be such a perfectionist when it comes to my writing. This is my story and I'm free to tell it however my emotions or thoughts would like for me to express it. What have you learned about yourself lately?

 

Until Next Time.. Dee Lechelle